Reformat

i still had a hangover the past few weeks...
we're running around.. literally..
doing everything we could at the projects that seems so endless...
but after monday...
we're almost done with the projects...
here comes the ojt
hope i find a good company

although our asp.net e learning site isn't perfect...
i really enjoyed the experience...
we lacked sleep for two days...
but it's worth it any way...
i just liked the rush... the busyness... the chaos
i don't know why.

i'm just quite sad yesterday because
we weren't able to attend dyxp...
i really wanted to go there.

well, this morning, i started cleaning up...
general cleaning wasn't so bad...
super general cleaning...
i really don't like cleaning everyday...
so i let others do that
but once i do, it would be meticulously cleaned.

i think really need to reformat..
not my computer, but my life..
some old files have to be deleted and
re install a new heart...

great thing... i got my disciple... justine!
she's done so much in my life..
i can't thank her enough

for years i have searched for my life...
for my future career, for the person who will be with me till the end of time

but now i realized that my life's focus is wrong
what i'm searching for is not what i really needed.

"those who finds his life loses it and those who loses their life for My sake finds it"
i think it's from matthew

i was trying to find my life so i lost it..
all the while, all really needed to do is to find Him...
and obey Him and everything else will follow

like what the song we sing on dyxp says
"This world has nothing for me..."

that's why i have to reformat.
to change my configurations, to change my direction,
and to defend myself against future virus attacks.

i'm not the old me anymore...
and my life will never be the same again
because He found me..
and He's in his perfect timing.