null hypo

there are a lot of things that are unsure in my life right now.
i don't know why, but i'll just trust whatever God gives me.
i can't read people's minds, only their feelings...
yeah, that's my problem again, people.

i always think of what someone might feel
or what they might say.
i can't ignore people's feelings.
i interpret too much.

are my assumptions wrong?
stick with the null hypothesis
so that you won't get hurt.
so that it's easier to reject or accept.

why do i worry so much?
last night i can't sleep...
thinking of what might be the problem...
o life!, its easier to think of solutions
for logical problems
than to battle with the heart.

because the heart is like a mirror of illusion,
beautiful but deceiving.
So, Lord, help me guard my heart
the one that's always frail and failing.

sandali na lang

tuwang tuwa tlaga ako sa kantang to ng hale...

alam ko n kung bakit palagi akong natatalo...
di kc ako marunong maghintay...
eh sabi n ngang...

Sandali na lang
Hale
Above Over and Beyond

Intro: D--,[C9-G-Em/G-D-Dsus] 4x


Verse:
      C9     G   Em/G
 Sandali na lang
 D-Dsus   C9   G  Em/G
 Konting  panahon
  D-Dsus    C9   G  Em/G
 Aking   paghihintay
  D     C,Em,Am7
 Na makasama ka

Interlude: [C9-G-Em/G-D-Dsus] 4x

Verse:
      C9     G   Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D-Dsus    C9   G    Em/G
 At     abot tanaw
D-Dsus  C9   G  Em/G 
 Panalangin ko
 D    C,Em,Am7
 Na makita ka



Chorus:
C      G         Em        D
 Naiinip, nasasabik, kasing bilis
C              G        Em   
 Nang isang iglap mahahanap
         D
 Sa may ulap
C       G           Em     
 Nagtatanong, nagtataka
             D
 Bat wala ka pa
C         G          Em    
 Nakatingala, nakatulala
           D
 Pero sabi mo..

Verse:
      C9     G   Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D-Dsus   C9   G  Em/G
 At   nandito na
D-Dsus   C9   G  Em/G
 At  ang panahon
 D     C,     Em,    Am7
 Ay wala sa ating kamay


Verse:
          C9  G   Em/G
 Huwag mag-alala
D-Dsus    C9   G  Em/G
 Maraming oras pa
 D-Dsus C9  G   Em/G
 Ang nakalaan
 D     C,   Em,Am7
 Para sa ating dalawa

(Repeat Chorus)

      C9    G  Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D      C9    G  Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D      C9    G  Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D      C9    G  Em/G
 Sandali na lang
D     C9    G  Em/G
 Hmmmmmmm....
D-Dsus  C9  G  Em/G
 Hmmmmmmm...  *Repeat till fade*

- end -

lovematch

at last i'm over with fashionfeeder... the super pink site that i modified...
and soon it will be uploaded in the net...

well, today wasn't so productive again...
i just received my new project assignment...
and it's lovematch... (http:// lovematch.ph)

when i saw the code, it was so unorganized.... i want to delete it all!!!! haha
that's why its so hard to modify... i have to look into almost 100 files ....
and the worst thing is that its uploaded in the net already so i'm editing the codes in a webpage and not in a code editor!
my task in that site is to fix some bugs and to create 3 layouts for boys/girls/etc..
i really have no idea for a dating website...
that's why i can't think of a good color scheme or layout...
yeah.. it's a dating website... how could i know?

i don't like those sites.. and now i'm modifying one...

By the way, we attended dyxpg today and i won a bible!!!
i'm so happy...
i'm also happy because i saw my classmates again...
we kinda missed each other na....hahaha

names

i miss you each time i see your name.
but you don't know and you don't care.
what's the point of saying things?
what's the point of this?
i haven't really thought about you for a long time.

people change, things change..
there's nothing constant in this world but change.
but why, in the midst of all these changes,
i still can't change it.

love, i thought this morning that love sucks...
but remembering that God is love and love is God,
i don't want to call love like that.

fate, the thing that i believed in for so long,
the belief that changed my ways.
should i chase fate or should i wait for it?
until i get tired of waiting.

love- again, sometimes i get tired of this word.
i have so many questions left unanswered...
why?
love, the unsolved mystery of my world.

when i think of you, you make me blue
when i see you, i don't want to look at you.

and you, why are you doing these things?
why would you want to know me?
i've told you the worst of me,
why are you still not stepping back?

stop, because i don't want you to be hurt
by me this way.
run, don't ever look back.
go, before its too late.

but at the back of my mind,
i don' t want you to go.
i don't understand why i can say these things to you.
probably because i know that you'd listen,
everytime my heart feels dying.
04/15/09

stressed out, solution: general cleaning

i was so stressed out with some things
that i can't help but release it through cleaning...
stressed and depressed, i must say...

i'm okay with work, it goes well
with AI , i still have to do some things and to complete it...
so i had to do something to release my stress...
i cleaned a lot.. i started with my room, then i moved to the living room,
then i cleaned the computer room, the cabinets , the closets...
removed all the stuff, and put it back organized..

ha..
i wasn't able to work on AI in the afternoon... because our cousins and aunt visited...
we haven't seen them for a long time...

and now i'm back again to being sad seeing that name...

this is a song about a girl who likes a guy who likes someone else

Invisible~Taylor Swift

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you'd stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
coz you are everything to me

I just want to show you she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to...
If you just see right through me
and if you'd only know me
then we could be a beautiful, miracle unbelievable
instead of just invisible

********

yeah i don't have the right
and it's all my fault to feel this way for you
but why am i so sad that i can't even mention your name?
stupid me, i should have known...

first day in ojt... frozen

this is the first day of my ojt...
it was fun to know other people aside from your classmates or schoolmates...
it was frustrating ,..
in the sense that when you try to sum up all the things that you did the whole day...
it seems like it's not very productive...

i was both literally and not literally frozen...
it was so cold... i couldn't even write legibly...
i froze,, smarty is so smart...
so different from how we used to program in php...
smarty is a module which separates your web layout from your codes...
i hope i can manage to install the modules tomorrow...
our programming guru is not around!

so i guess i'll just survive tomorrow and move on with AI...
my problem is still how to get to the office in the fastest and least costly way...
i'll try another route tomorrow...

wish me good luck!

eheads... hangover

my sister and i watched 'the final set' concert of eraserheads at channel 7 last night...
that was the first time that i watched eraserheads in a concert,
because i usually just listen to their songs so i dont know how they sing in front of an audience...

it wasn't so lively at first...
probably because they're still mourning for francis m.
the first few songs were not so familiar...

but as they sang 'minsan'~ this seems like their barkada's song...
written by ely buendia..
i can see raymund trying so hard to fight back the tears...
he was hitting the drums so hard as if he's releasing something...
while ely was teary eyed the whole time...
"minsan sa may kalayaan tayo'y nagkatagpuan..."
it must be hard for them to sing that song again...
because they were best of friends before but they disbanded and didn't talk to each other for quite some time...

ely was probably being cautious with his condition... he doesn't move around the stage much...
it must be hard to perform while your heart is mourning...
and singing your songs in the past...

behind every song, they have their memories of it...
sometimes while performing, some of them would just laugh or smile..
some, like raymund.. can't just hide how he feels...
the emotions are written all over his face...

though i wasn't there in the concert.. that was my birthday...
and its one of the most memorable concerts i've watched...
it's emotional, yet not over -dramatic....

eraserheads...
is there hope for a new start?
i hope so..